First we had Homecoming events Friday and Saturday. Then on Thursday afternoon I find out the grant I've been working on for 2 weeks needs to be pretty much re-written. It was due on Monday. Pamela can relate I'm sure. I was out of the office half the day Friday b/c I had to work our alumni golf game, got back to not a lot of answers to the questions I posed to our grant team. Did what I could, on my own, to start changing things around. Had to work Saturday for half a day. My work day started off with things not being set up and me having to help, then people changing what they were supposed to do, so I had to step in, but I had obligations other places too, then one more chore added to my plate on top of that. Then it was Homecoming and my sororities 10 year celebration, so I did take some time to chill for a few hours. Sunday I awoke to begin some more changes to the writing and a few emails all while getting laundry done. Monday morning rolls around and from the moment I step in the door until a little after 5 pm.........I worked my tail off to get that proposal in on time and complete.
It was one H*** of a weekend. Plus a little stress leading up to that weekend from the grant too.
All the while, I'm trying to re-focus my energies on myself and my health. There were def. a few moments of the verge of tears and at least one moment of tears (in private) and only b/c I knew that it would help relieve some stress if I let it happen.
I'm not saying I've fixed all my problems. I've at least dealt with my stress and I think I did better with it than the last time I was under that pressure, so that is positive. I'm not saying that I've found the magic pill or thought or motion that will make me lose weight better and a little faster.....
But I've at least found my way back to focus. I've re-read, wiped my WW tracking and weights clean. Put in my new start weight and a new weigh day and points starting point (Monday). I've started to add more and different things to my exercise too. Food will always be the hardest part for me. I'm NOT a food planner. Its just not who I am. So, until that button clicks in my head, I'll have to learn how to work with that snafu in my personality. I tried so hard to change all the things that I did "wrong" that it was much more work than trying to find a way to make what I did work.
Eh, I know the ones of you who will disagree with that statement. Oh well. We will have to agree to disagree.
On a positive note. My work has adopted a rider for our health insurance this year for morbid obesity. I think me pointing that out to our HR as to why I wouldn't go in to see the Dr. about my weight b/c they would charge me an arm in a leg, really was heard. I wasn't on some tirade about fat people getting equal treatment or anything, but I was simply stating a fact.
I managed to see 313.4 on the scale today. And my logged weigh for this week (Monday) was 315.6. I inputted my starting weight (new) as 316 b/c that was the highest weight I saw in the week.
I could go on a mission to figure out how I did that. But I think over complicating things is how I get burned out.
But I did do a few things different this last week:
1. I added on a bit of exercise. About 10-15 more mins. to be exact (after the 60 on the elpt). I added aerobic steps (those boxes you step on), squats with that cowbell looking weight thing and arm weights.
2. I ate into my weekly WW points like none other. I pretty much killed them on Friday and Saturday (49 in total).
I didn't really pay too much attention to what I was eating. Just tried to listen to myself about food. Was I hungry? What did I want? I didn't really count points either until Sunday (where I got in my 60 mins., used my stairs to step and did some weights and squats)
I know that is a dangerous path so that's why I didn't continue it. I started over on Monday, so I started tracking and counting again. I want to get back into the swing of tracking and counting before I get too concerned about what exactly I'm tracking and counting. Its almost like I need to start all over again with just the very basics. Things got too complicated.
Anyway. I hope I do make my 310 before the cruise, but if I don't, it will be just fine.
Carnival Vista Eastern 3/24/2018
Carnival Dream Western 8/13/2017
Carnival Sunshine Eastern Journeys 4/29/2016
Carnival Magic Western-11/2/2014
Carnival Liberty Exotic Western- 11/3/2012
Carnival Dream Western-10/22/2011
Carnival Dream Eastern-1/22/2011
Sovereign of the Seas-6/2001