After more research on the internet I found information about an eating disorder called Binge Eating Disorder. Surely I don't have an eating disorder, I told myself. But the more I read about B.E.D. the more I thought maybe I did. I scheduled an intake appointment with a local eating disorder clinic. The therapist confirmed that I do have B.E.D., although fortunately a mild form.
I have since found out that B.E.D. is a new diagnosis that has only been legitimized in the last year or so. This is covered by most health insurance companies.
If you think this may be something you are struggling with, read this from the bingeeatingdisorder.com:
"Information About Binge Eating Disorder (B.E.D.):
- B.E.D. is a real medical condition
- B.E.D. is the most common eating disorder in US adults
Although the cause of B.E.D. is unknown, these may play a role:
- Certain chemicals in the brain
- Family history and certain life experiences
What B.E.D. Looks Like in Adults
- 1 Regularly eating far more food than most adults would in a similar time period and in similar circumstances, and feeling that one's eating is out of control during a binge
- 2 Binge eating episodes that include three of the following:
- Eating extremely fast
- Eating beyond feeling full
- Eating a lot when not hungry
- Eating in secret to hide how much is being eaten
- Feeling terrible after a binge
- 3 Feeling very upset by eating binges
- 4 On average, binge eating at least once a week for three months
- 5 Unlike people with other eating disorders, adults with B.E.D. don't routinely try to "undo" their excessive eating with extreme actions like throwing up or over-exercising
I only have a few of these symptoms.
I have been in treatment since late June. I understand myself much better now. Have I lost any weight with my new knowledge? No. But I now believe I have the information I need to eat more like a "normal" person. I believe this will ultimately lead to weight loss. I'm still struggling with eating when I'm not hungry. I'm still thinking about food a good portion of every day. But I have some tools to help me cope with these problems and I think weight loss is possible.
This condition is very difficult for me to admit to having. But if this helps even one of you reading this, then it has been worthwhile for me to write this post. Since it is a new diagnosis this condition is very under-reported and under-diagnosed. Please get help if you think you may have B.E.D.