Posted June 4th, 2009, 04:12 PM
Oh my, yes I too was a food hider when I was younger. My mom went back to school when I was young and she took a "Healthy Human Body" class (strangely, i attended the same college and took the same class) and b/c she was learning about being healthy she really tried to help me as I was already an overweight child. One time she even made me carry around to gallon milk jugs filled with water for 30 mins in the yard to show me what putting on 10 more lbs would fee like. Of course at like 8, you don't grasp that lesson. I would NOW!
I do live with my family and they do try to help me, but sometimes mom over helps and she just annoys me, so she has learned just to let me do it and just to be supportive. But she has a husband to buy food for too and though he could stand to lose 20lbs and has high cholstl and BP and acid reflux he still eats debbie cakes and pies and wants ice cream in the house, plus he is trying to quit smoking so there is candy everywhere! I avoid the candy and when mom buys groceries I try not to be the one who puts away his "snacks" so that I don't know what they are, so that I don't want them. And she tries to buy things she knows he will like, but I won't (like anything with coconut.) I try to eat in my room. I know they say that's bad, but my room is upstairs and if I eat up there at least I have to climb the stairs to get there and once again laziness will keep me up there for a while longer and away from the kitchen and seconds.
I'm also trying to train my brain to cut off eating. After I finish dinner and sometimes have a small cookie or fruit I brush my teeth. I'm trying to do like a Palov's dog thing. Make my brain say, "Oh, she brushed her teeth, no more food." It might work, IDK.
I gave up fast food for a year once when I was doing WW and it was so hard. It is the devil and I know it, but the temptation is there and I do need to learn to say no on my own. I wonder it I should set a goal for that. A small step goal of ....for a week, when I'm offered something sweet or "bad" for me I say no. If I can go a week, then I'll go see a movie or something. But not the one movie theatre b/c they have nachos and I love movie theatre nachos.
OOOO, another small goal. During mother nature, I can't have frito lay jalopeno cheese dip and tortillas. That's my "go to" food. I crave spicey foods.
I have to say thanks to you guys though b/c in the past I have felt the need to lie about my food choices b/c of the guilt, but while this new total honesty with myself and others kick is hard sometimes I find that if I say it (write it, same thing) that it makes more of an impact. And then I don't feel double guilty for lying and for eating bad things. Thanks for helping.
I hope you guys are getting something out of it too
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