It doesn't sound pathetic at all. We all have insecurities and miss family and friends, so please don't berate yourself.
As for me, I love sailing solo. It's a great chance to meet people from all over the world and have fun doing it :)
Quoting from another thread:
That's my attitude too, plus I like sailing solo as I get to meet lots of interesting (and some not so interesting) people along the way.
My first solo meet-up was on the Allure of the Seas. I went to the straight meet-up and met good people agreeing to spend time together after dinner.
A mix up later and we were at the gay meet-up by mistake.
Long story short (I'll tell you the full story when I see you on the next ship!), the whole crowd got on so well, it was a meet-up, not either a straight or gay meet-up, it was just a group of new friends getting together for a beer or two.
On my last cruise, I got friendly with a 70 year old woman, a 22 year old man, and a 28 year old woman. I'm still in touch via WhatsApp with several people I've met over the last few years.
Coming up, I'm booked on MSC from Barcelona for Christmas and P&O from Barbados to Southampton in March 23.
Say hello, I don't bite.
Happy days!