Aaauugh. So sorry to hear this. You're right about being unable to recapture special occasion celebrations. My husband and I have cancelled, or the cruise line has cancelled, no less than 5 cruises in the past 2 years so I feel your pain. Based on what I've read on Cruise Critic regarding quarantining, etc. we've decided to not plan any cruises for the foreseeable future and concentrate instead on road trips (airplane travel also seems fraught right now with all the cancellations). You live in a gorgeous part of the world. Take a road trip and stay in fabulous accommodations! Not the same I know, but it's something. Hope you feel better soon.